;Wallflower

And now you’re craving for attention, you’re cold lying on the ground numb. 

You didn’t care when I had given you all I had and today you’re dying to have what you earlier had but things don’t work out your way always, do they? You don’t always get what you want, there’s a huge difference between your lust and love, if you loved me back then you wouldn’t let go so easy but today you show up like you care but in the end I’m not gonna be the one to quench your lust, cause I’m a wallflower, I stay quite even though I know it all, I wait if you’d tell me all before I bust and blither you, I burn inside when you lie, I crave for attention more than you’ll ever know and ever will you care? Give me a reason to stay because I want this forever and by forever I mean I want us to be infinite but, You’ll never understand me, will you ever take me serious and count up in your priorities like your breakfast. You’ll never get me in your mind because I’m the kind of the person you never had, yes I’m a wallflower;

A thousand splendid things.

I don’t know, what was it?
Maybe the way he talked.
Those lips when touched, his polite voice was like a melody to my ears. 
Bringing me into ecstasy
His warm touch was like a drug that was my addiction   
As I inhaled him inside he got me high
And as I took intervals he became my addiction and If I had to leave him there was no other option than me being completely destroyed, like shards.

Because maybe when I glanced at him
I could find a thousand things I love about him.

There was something about him that always left me amused and speechless
His scent was like an element drowned into my blood stream

He made me feel solitary
Because we accept the love we think we deserve.

New mind.

The fire inside is growing day by day
A hesitation is growing inside as a stacked hay

The ice is melting so fast
Like an iceage is what I’m experiencing tonight

Another thought is going through my mind not kind as what everybody thinks
Why is it always me to get picked on?
Am I not a human as well

Or maybe I don’t have feelings as the think
The life is scattered away into pieces,
Trying to build up a new life
Everybody’s degrading my thoughts
Killing the new era of hope
A new mind!

Holding on to a new thought wasn’t easy as I thought maybe it’s better If I stop holding on to what’s going on.

Paradoxical Pride.

I’m gonna sallow  my pride
As the monsters in my closet hide
Sleeping With one eye naked
I’m paranoid

The restlessness never leaves
The affection increases
Leading to a dead end
A wasteland

A crippled need of approval
I’m like a paradox
Contradictory on my existence
Lost between fondness
And obsession

Just because my existence desires
My mind is archaic
And as I look deep down in to you
You’re seducing me

Because without the moon the stars aren’t able to shine
And without the sun, the moon is nowise.

I’m like the sun, maybe to arose you to light I’ll need to obscure my exposure down right.